Saccharine Thoughts

Oh Scrubs, you make me blush, laugh and sometimes want to cry.

Modern-day fountain of youth = playpen ball pit.

What good is a destination without a path to get there? None what-so-ever, so it's time I set myself on a road that leads somewhere, even if I'm not completely sure where. 6 Months will put us in July 2009 Continue blog with 4 posts per week Paint 3 small pieces for living room, 2 large for bedroom, refinish desk and paint glass top! Work on tattoo design, to be done in April? Lose 10-12 lbs Pay off UT debt by April Apply for new MC and transfer balance Apply bonus and tax return to pay off Visa Save $ for summer classes Keep up with newsletter at work; look for opportunities inside & outside of HomeAway. Take NTR 311 ( Spring Summer, online Eng upper-division class (Summer I, in-res) Eng upper-division class (Summer II, in-res) Look into taking final class/Sr Seminar, hopefully abroad Revise research papers on News from Nowhere and Man vs Moreau, flesh out short story responses. Practice Spanish, reread Spanis

Yep, fuck em, along with this shitty mouse that's giving me carpal tunnel syndrome.

I am hurt, and this is not the kind of pain I can find pleasure in. I understand why things are necessary, but going back and forth on this bumpy ride is about to make me sick. I step down quietly, feeling discarded, and say yes, ok, I understand, whatever you need. That is just my nature to be so compliant, so submissive, such a good girl. Always aiming to please, just holding out secret hope that someday it will pay off and I will get what I crave: gratification, the approving pat on the head. To be spoken for, to have claim staked, to have someone stand and say yes, she's mine, thanks for asking. To me, it doesn't end now. It's part of the game, which isn't a game at all. Yessir, No sir... I'm in time-out for someone else's issues. It is my choice, right? Yes it is, and because of that I can stand and say it's bullshit. I want what I want and I will either get it or I won't, so tell me now whether it is time to hang on for dear life, or just let go.

If you've never checked out XKCD, you totally should. The guy is brilliant in an everyday sort of way.

2009, where have you been all my life? I’ve waited anxiously for you to arrive and wipe my slate clean. A fresh start, a new day, another try is just what I have needed. I have my resolutions, a few good ones at that: stop being late. Better yet, start being early. Make time for things that make me happy – climbing, cooking, reading, painting. Finish my second degree. Travel; go someplace I’ve never been that will make me want to stay there. I have much higher expectations for the coming year than just these short term goals. 2009, I want you to sweep me off my feet. Push me beyond the boundaries I know and give me opportunities to prove to myself in them. Give me reasons to laugh and smile. No more disappointment lines; from here on out any wrinkle I get will be from something joyful. Give me something that sparkles every day; jewels of love and friendship, trinkets of happiness and memories that will embellish the rest of my life. Give me adventures to pur