This week was a damn fun one! I have been getting up earlier every single morning to do my exercises and crunches, +11 (what, one point for every day right?) I spent lots quality time with old and new friends, +4 I went dress shopping and for the first time ever felt great about it, +1 Got in some practice time with my camera, +1 And realized I’m much better with my film than my digital SLR Minolta, probably due to lack of practice with the latter. On Saturday I had one of the best and most memorable Valentine’s Days that I’ve ever had, and the first one ever to be spent single. As for other goals, I really can’t claim any solid progress, so it’s time I start living by to-do lists. This week’s list is focused here: catching up with all the entries I’ve saved and not published and uploading and editing all the photos from the past 2 months to add to my new Flickr account. Also focusing on the newsletter at work, which is just starting to take form and will hopefully open some doors for ...
I realize that I am way farther behind on these 25 Things than should be acceptable, so here is an installation that is long overdue. Let me rave about my city for a moment: Austin rocks. Really. As long as I remain in Texas, I will be in Austin. Having access to so. much. to do. around me is just not something I could give up. Local shops, eateries, the lake, semi-obscure classes and one-of-a-kind community events give this city some serious character, making it a haven for weirdos like me. One of the many kick-ass things offered here is Austin's Free Day of Dance in January - a city-wide celebration of dance . This consists of several dance studios across town teaming up and offering free classes all day long . Does it get much better than that? MissK and I took the Arthur Murray Studio up on this offer and checked out the bellydance class with Bahaia . This little lady was out and about teaching bellydance workshops just weeks after birthing a child. Uhm, intimidating much? ...
I am hurt, and this is not the kind of pain I can find pleasure in. I understand why things are necessary, but going back and forth on this bumpy ride is about to make me sick. I step down quietly, feeling discarded, and say yes, ok, I understand, whatever you need. That is just my nature to be so compliant, so submissive, such a good girl. Always aiming to please, just holding out secret hope that someday it will pay off and I will get what I crave: gratification, the approving pat on the head. To be spoken for, to have claim staked, to have someone stand and say yes, she's mine, thanks for asking. To me, it doesn't end now. It's part of the game, which isn't a game at all. Yessir, No sir... I'm in time-out for someone else's issues. It is my choice, right? Yes it is, and because of that I can stand and say it's bullshit. I want what I want and I will either get it or I won't, so tell me now whether it is time to hang on for dear life, or just let go.
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